Friday, July 23, 2010

Intensity.

you know what, sometimes people think they are a nobody to people whom they love most, either a nobody or somebody and you just kinda feel like, I wouldn't want to meddle in with it, I mean, I might end up lookin' like an idiot, I mean you know you know you wont know as well as understand, grr.. and you feel like you're just a nutter hangin' there they got their own business or what, ended up unreplied?

LOL,
love is really a mystery for someone to find for out himself or herself and you simply cannot rush on it.
Am i growing demanding? or just over reacting?
well anyway, every one who loves always gives.

I got a news from my tita that I'm able to go to HK, and I became really excited about it, hope it goes well, cause I really miss her and lola, by going so I'll be able to spend time with them and have fun!
I mean as i wait for the school day, I will have a packet of happiness to carry with me back here,
I want to go though, c'mon hope it's good, hope I can go

Things came visualizing in me like, I get to hang around with my lola and tita, jokes and laughter or walking in the park or going to places taki
ng pictures.
Overall, it's really a fun trip to begin with, and I REALLY hope, I can go :)

:)

btw, here a cool stuff i made in photoshop, hope i can make it better sometime :)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

chill

The weather today is currently a mixture of daylight as well as grey skies and raindrops.
Weird eh?
Past few days I found myself reading Lord Of The Rings Trilogy, I mean I'm a great fan ever since.
The story is really epic, It's great how the author describes detailed environments and the scenes that instantly depict pictures in your mind as if you're watching a movie.
Anyway, it is really cold now, I like the feeling of the cold wind just gush around your face or your body, it makes you feel like shaky or shivery in away that is really chilly :)

Monday, July 19, 2010

admoNishments

Dearest paper of this post, I know you won't reply back .cause you're just a paper,when I write to you but I want you to know that I'm so stupid.
I'm so down these days and here it happened failure of some sort which brings me back to my poem of "the portrait of--",
I told myself tons of times that I am "chanceless", even though I am daring enough to speak up, I know a lost cause when I see one. A water that worked hard to reach up the most fragrant flower of all ended up swayed back down.
I know it's weird to talk to you like this wall, but you know what, that writing here brings up quite a lightness in my mind.


"oh hear me, you sun of the day and moon of the night"
"you're beauty was what I crave for, a fire to ignite"
"you're eyes of marble ever pierced my mind"
"the vine of enticement to you, continues to bind"


I really should not have though, really, oh REALLY!
Flashes of it played pictures in me, I want to go to a place where everyone is smiling, the weather today was like me all along,. .
As I play the piano, the music surrounds me of how life really is, it was like a staff comprised with different notes, you can't skip or you can't go back, play with the harmony, to maintain the balance and unity, so as not to make the music falter.


I know God is with me, that's why I'm not breakin' down or feeling really bad, He is always here for me no matter what happens, He knows my name and He won't let me down. .I believe in Him, with all I am..


I really need to get out for a while, it's really boring bein' alone and have counted smiles or laughs. . .
Like you're on you own , nahhh too bad.


and
I got a low self esteem by the way its just how it works.
soft heart pa.


that's it, i think i wrote much already.
Oh paper/wall thanks for listenin'
at least I got a friend who doesn't talk back.lol


see ya.

Friday, July 16, 2010

transitions

Once again I'm back for another entry:)
Simply at home yet again . 
Will be goin' to the school tomorrow, hope it will help me get out of boredom and being bummed for about a year -_-
It's so hard sometimes when you're like stagnant for a period of time, I'm not really accustomed to being stuck, I'm kind of energetic and an on going person.
It's better that I got something like a wall like this, that even I know nobody's reading or what, you can just express yourself in a manner of words.
I recently finished a videogame and I was really surprised that I did it for one week, either I just played too much or the game is really short, funny how time flies slowly when you aren't doing anything, completely absurd though, mixed feelings in the head!
Funny, I kept babbling loads of words and I hope nobody found everything as tedious as it is.


now playing: you and i both - jason mraz


That's it, I'll get some updates so,
goodbye




:)

Thursday, July 15, 2010

to miss a "verb"

Have you ever felt like you want to scream how much you love someone but ended up unheard?
Or your existence seemed to dangle invisibly to the eyes of your love?
I know it's kind of over acting but even then I "feel" it,
That's why love is complicated, but I promised myself that I'll just hang around on what will happen next.
If you ask me, she's my inspiration . .
That everything I do, there is passion dealt with,


". .though I'm unseen, my heart won't stop whispering your name, you nailed it with yours"


Well thats an introduction for the day, I didn't know that I still got a poet in me but surely those are things that kind churned inside me about someone.
Like you feel you're no match for other because they're way better for her,[insecurity], like you really like her much,I know it's kind of stupid to be insecured however It's just what I felt about the matter, but anyway not much wider upon that page.
Today, has been just an ORDINARY day for anyone else like me,
I feel lazy though, slacking myself in the couch and tries to get some sleep.
Then, I chatted by the computer by the table at the morning, played some games and slacked again.
I'm gettin' fed off by such routine, I need to get some fresh air. .
I'm quite looking forward for the french classes, maybe that could take my mind off things.
Guess that's all I have so far,


cheers,


". I'll be just here . .till the time comes "



Wednesday, July 14, 2010

too late yet too early . .

Hello everyone, so it has been a long time since I have left and now it's kind of weird about waiting for almost a year until I enter school.
Well anyway I've been busyin' myself by some musical instruments, and been looking forward for the French classes I'll be taking . .
For sure It'll be quite fun though, Owh man, its really boring at home zzz..
What a long vacation out there . .


I guess that's all,


:)